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After I got rid of my old facebook and made a new clean one I realized that its not even so much facebook that irritates me as it is addictions. Because of this I will be writing about the subject as soon as I can.

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     We say that we are all more connected with one another thanks to technology but we are more distant with almost every human interaction. You go out with a group and 85% have their phones out, and that percentage is being optimistic. People spend just as much time staring at facebook as they do glancing at your face, if your lucky. You walk into a laundry room and they don’t even grace you with eye contact let alone a hello. You are friendly, you’re out spoken, you smile as you walk down the street, you give someone eye contact instead of pulling out your phone and pretending to check the time, wow, what a freak.

     You go to church events when your not religious and not going to be converted, you invite people to hang out, you asks your friends to hang out even if you don’t have a set plan, what is wrong with you? Well let me make something every clear, I spend time with people to, SPEND TIME WITH THEM. A new and BRILLIANT idea, I know. It’s unconventional really. I don’t spend time with people to watch them on scroll through facebook. I don’t spend time with people to watch them talk to someone else via text messaging or facebook. I don’t spend time with people because I am just so determined to do a set thing as a set location at a set time, no. I spend time with people because I value their company, I value having a conversation with them, I value them! If I didn’t want to be there with them I can assure you, I wouldn’t be. Lately my hatred for facebook has grown and grown and grown and though I am not normally an irritable person seeing people on facebook irritates me so much its hard for me to hold it back.

     You can’t listen to what I have to say, but you can comment on someones status, you can’t look me in the eye but you can like my picture, you can’t remember to text me back but you can have a conversation on a comments box, you can’t “find time” to talk on the phone but you have facebook up and running whether you are working, relaxing, watching TV, eating. If there is anything that makes me want to smack people upside the face its fucking facebook.

     No I don’t feel more connected to you when while I’m with you I get to watch the flicker of facebook in your eyes but when I go home and I am ALONE on facebook I get to see pictures of you laughing and smiling with someone else. It is the best way to make me feel like you don’t give a shit about me. You want me to feel like I don’t matter, you want to remind me of my insignificance, you want to show me how not entertaining I am, please get on facebook on your phone, oh please. Remind me of how social you are, of how considerate you are, of how much attention you pay to other peoples lives and what really matters to them, please, show me the ways of social interaction and stare at that white and blue screen instead of looking me in the eyes.

     I am a firm believer in not taking your negative emotions out on others and this is why I am ranting about this here instead of yelling at tons of people I know. And yes I do have a facebook but the depressing truth is lately going on facebook only makes me feel bad. It reminds me of how artificial human interaction feels, how it makes the facebook world feel like the real world and the real world just a game you play in your spare time. It makes me feel like people find pressing buttons and posting pictures of food more important then my friendship. It makes me feel like everyone’s trying to play the game “anything you can do I can do better” game. Like making your life seem interesting is the top priority, like you want your life to be on display and have everyone marvel at it. Nothing seems personal anymore, nothing seems important. Its like everyone’s life has become just another piece of a sad reality TV show. Twisted and spun so that people will pretend to give a fuck and so that you can feel some kind of affirmation that you keep having to work harder and harder to get because you are spending less and less time taking in reality and more and more time artificially creating one.

     Everyday now I consider deleting it just so that I never have to look at it again but everytime I get on I remember the entire list of people that I would not be able to get a hold of if I did. I look at it and think the same things, oh your tired, oh you are bored, oh someone at work pissed you off, oh you are hitting on him for everyone to see, oh you ate something, oh you hate the government, oh fuck the system huh, oh you took another picture of you making the same face, good for you. I don’t care. What I do care about is why you feel the need to express such things, why does everyone have to know what your sandwich looked like? Why does the public need another my life sucks post? Why do you have to be possessive and throwing yourself at him for 100+ people to see?

     Don’t get me wrong I think there are some good things about facebook, its a way for people to keep track of how they spent their time, I think taking pictures of adventures and outings and loved ones is great, I think MAKING MEMORIES is valuable. I just wish that my memories weren’t bombarded with you looking at your phone. I guess what this all comes down to is I am disappointed. There is plenty of other reasons but facebook is moving to the top of the charts real quick.